Friday, November 6, 2009

Today is one of those "I'm not going to bother putting on makeup because it will all come off anyway" kind of days.

I am struggling this morning. Life over here is such a blessing, but that doesn't mean that it is always easy.

We received a message when we woke up that John's grandmother is not doing well, that most of the family is getting back to see her in the hospital. And here we sit... many many miles away not knowing what to do. At times like this, it would be so much easier if we could just hop in the car to be close to loved ones.

The human side of me, can't seem to understand why God would allow us to be home most of the Fall, and then bring us overseas right before she got sick. I know though, that God's ways are higher than my own, and that He sees things and knows things I may never know. At the same time I am thankful for the extended time we got to spend with her. I am glad we were able to throw her a 85th Birthday party, that we got to see her fashion show, and for the night we stayed late and played cards with her way past her bedtime. It's easy to feel guilty though, wishing we would have stayed even longer that night.

I am praying for a miracle. If it is God's will, I pray that He would give grandma the strength the make it through. The selfish side of me wants her to be there when I get home in May... to be sitting there waiting for us to play cards with her again. At the same time, I know that in due time, whether it is weeks, months, or years, she will have the chance to meet her creator face to face.

This short clip
was an encouragement to me this morning. I don't have to pretend it is easy to be over here, feeling helpless. I just have to pray that God would get us through it.

Please pray for John's grandma... for strength, comfort, and the will to make it through. And, please pray for us... for wisdom and for peace. I am thankful I serve a God that cares about every single detail of my life.

Do me a favor today, go hug someone and tell them you love them.

2 comments:

Emily said...

Suzanne, I'm so sorry to hear that your grandma is in the hospital. It goes without saying, I know how hard that is. But not being able to be near is an especially difficult burden. I will be praying for your family and for your grandma that each and every moment can be lived fully and treasured, that healing will come quickly, and that you and John will have a peace knowing that although you can't be with her, she is resting in God's hands--the hands of the Great Physician, the Great Healer. It comforted me, too, to listen to that clip. It's such a good reminder to us all. Thinking of you, hurting with you, and most of all, praying for you.

sweetemaline said...

Suzanne,

That is awful! I am sorry you aren't able to be with your family during this difficult time! We will be praying for you, John and your family during this difficult time!